4.24.2016

Good things

I know it's been months since I've posted, but life has been super busy.  And honestly I opened up Blogger a couple times to write something and I would just shut it down, I really didn't know what I should say.

But tonight, as I was sitting here going over what I great weekend I had I kept thinking to myself how lucky (blessed or whatever word you'd like to use) I am and I do have some pretty amazing things going on in my life right now.

BUT there's always this voice in my head saying "You ARE lucky,  but what have you ever done in your life to deserve this amazing man in your life?" And replace the word "man" with anything I have right now that's a good thing; job, friendships, car,  etc.  If it's good, and I dwell on it for too long, here comes that stupid voice.

I can't decide why this is always nagging me, I have some thoughts on it, but nothing I want to put out here because I know that some of them would cause an uproar among my friends.  But I can't be the only one who deals with this right?

At the moment I just think of how hard I worked at my job to get to where I am, I earned it.  I think about all the time I spent as a single lady dating the duds and finally met a "good one", again, I put in the time and eventually I got lucky.  And all of the other things falling into place are doing so because I am willing to work for what I want.  So I DO deserve good things in my life.  I just get tired of having to remind myself that I do.

This post is kind of a Debbie Downer post.  Soon I'll write a hilarious post about some silly thing I did once...there are plenty of those incidents.  Or maybe I'll just post a super cute picture of Emery and Sydniece when I go home this weekend.  I promise the next post will be stupidly happy.
Until next time...

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